cardcityrocker

If you wanna see me post something on happenings in my life lemme hear a HELL YEAH!!!!

no?
ok.

k well maybe later.
But for now a story involving me!

One time I was walking from chem to Ackerman and listening to the soundtrack to A link to the Past.
Right when the song that applies when he pulls out the master sword out of the forest, the wind started to blow SUPER hard.
No guys, I mean SUPER hard. Infer from that what you will.

Little known fact, A link to the past is the greatest game of all time. Everything else is downhill from there. Just thought I'd share that.

In the middle of trying to prepare for my upcoming physics lab, looking at this beautiful girl
3 tables ahead of my and listening to the white stripes, I came upon the conclusion that
this is probably one of the most stressful summers and/or times in a long time. Especially since
the stress has been extended throughout that entire summer as opposed to just a shorter period of time.

In between the strain of trying to find money for college, (which I've spent less time doing and more time worrying on)
dealing with idiotic students at the front desk, trying to decipher these unintelligible physics problems, and sticking people with
these fear inducing needles I've managed to gain stress in my romantic life as well.

I'd like to think I try my best to be patient with a lot of things. Whether it's waiting in line for a traffic violation, dealing with a useless coworker,
or a crappy internet connection, I feel like the fuse on me is significantly longer than quite a few. Yet still with all of the shit that's bearing down me I've found myself becoming less and less patient. I've got a lot to deal with, and I wish Gaby would actually try to think about that. Sometimes it feels like she doesn't seriously try to empathize with me or even anyone for that matter, and that I'm putting a lot of myself into a relationship that doesn't exist.

In many ways I feel people are aware of my patience and that they almost feel the need to abuse it. I'd understand if you have to choose
me over the irate customer giving you shit for parking at the desk, but sometimes it seems that's not the case. Sometimes it feels like people just abuse that characteristic of mine because they know they can rather than that they need to. I'm sure this is not always the case but still, it gets a little frustrating sometimes.

Either way I'm going to have to talk to Gaby, perhaps to end this thing between us but definitely to conclude on good terms. I'd hate
to turn into her scene-kid of an ex. I'll just have to wait when I'm not as pissed off.

On the brightside I got to spend my Sunday at home hanging out with Daniel. I realized I bit of A LOT this summer and it's been hurting
to chew this shit. I was able to pick up a new pair of running shoes, new socks, some insoles, a new Britta filter, some foot medicine, and a new pair of my fitted scrubs (thank goodness). All in all it was a good day, I just wish that I could extend that for a week. You'd think that if you have a week full of bullshit you'd get another week that's full the complete opposite. So I guess I'm waiting.

Hopefully I'll get to go with Elorahh to Disneyland this Wednesday. I'd really like, at least to get some more time away. I'm just too stressed

Well I guess that's all for now, Bye Bye.

bikes.urbanoutfitters.com

first holgas and now this. They just want to take everything away from me.

Daniel and I have concluded that most of the people who shop there are pricks.
and fucks.

So we drank in Elyess' room. Which was nice, despite the fact that i have a fucking ochem final
on Saturday and I have so much to catch up.
When I see Ed and Liz near each other I find it cute.

So I totally went to check what time I was supposed to donate platletes
and the dude there complimented me on my Mars Volta T-shirt. Too bad he's married.

But seriously, I'm pretty excited to be phlebotomist. Actually VERY excited.

I'm going to apply to DESMA, hopefully I get in.

Ok stuff's spinning, I'll post later.
I'm not wasted but I NEED to study.

WEEDNESDAY

Donating platlets is helping get through the year. The workers comp AND  15 gift tickets are super awesome!
I finally got to donate yesterday and really enjoyed the new platelet center in the Ackerman Union.
Just 3 more donations and I get a $50 gift card! I know that they sell my life force for shit loads more,
but how am I actually going to charge people? comon. That would be cool though.

I watched the uninvited while donating which was a terrible movie, and extermely predicatble. But I never got past those,
soley because Emily Browning is in it as WELL as Elizabeth Banks. Yeah, I'm not gonna care about the movie quality,
plus I get to see Emily Browning in her undies. Ok I knowi t's perverted, but she's super pretty!
Enough with that.

My work shift yesterday was terrible. People were being so fucking rude it isn't even funny.
Blahhh I need to keep studying for ochem.

bye.

I apparently have flu symptoms. This is good at all, and I have to work a midshift tonight, I'm sure my boos is cool with me sleeping.
I literally felt great earlier this day but two hours before my shift I was severly afflicted. I'm in so much pain right now.

Luckily I got to see Alyssa, whom I love very much.
I don't think you realize how amazing you are buddy. Whichever little boy is lucky enough
to be had by a woman like you ought to take a moment and appreciate it, or I'll haymaker them.

I love you so much Alyssa, you made my day.

Fuck I really can't handle this right now. Cool, I found my snowmand blankee.

It's so quiet here.
Luckily I went out with Chelsie on Tuesday which was a very pleasant surprise
since I was expecting to just sit around and jack off.  Plus native foods was really tasty :3

So I totally beat GoW on insane and am now shooting for RE5 on professional! how fun!
I just felt like posting since I'm not really doing jack shit.
On the bright side, I've been getting paid to do just that.
Jack shit.

I had and "escort" shift with Andrew yesterday which consisted of me sitting there playing world of
goo and sleeping the entire time. This is probably one of the coolest part-time jobs ever.

These midshifts have officially turned me into a night owl, which isn't so bad despite the fact
once school starts my schedule is going to suck.

Ok that's all I guess, I just felt like blogging about shit.

Man LS final...

Instead of studying yesterday, I beat RE5 on veteran with Martin.
Now I had to spend the whole day studying.
But on the brightside I forgot about a quote my LS teacher said until I listened to the podcast again.

"Here's Nicole Ricci, she's a mammal, and here she is gestating."

ok well I thought it was funny.

I bet reading another post in regards to the current state of things sucks huh?

Times are so tough and I've begun to feel the fear of being naked in the street.
And this feels real with the current state of my family.

I really want to do the things I want to do and see the things I want to see,
but I'm so tied by my blood. They keep saying that I can do what I want after college be we all
know that I'm going to come back and try to save them.

I just hate seeing my brother site there living in his own little world.
It's difficult for me to go home. What with my dad out of a job and our house in the red.
But with the rose colored glasses off, it feels like the world (especially back home) is getting darker and darker.
People I once knew and currently know are wasting their lives living in denial (family, friends) and it turned
into disappointment and fear. For my family I know I have to pick up their slack. I just wish my brother would grow up some days.
I've grown a little sick of it. It's sad to say, but I don't look up to him in the way most hoist thier older siblings as role models. If anything my role model is my age.

Recently I've formed a bit of frustration and disappointment with some friends back home like Daniel.
A bunch of things have occurred which have changed my image of him, and it sucks to see him go in this direction.
I've been meaning to talk to him about it, but things are stressful enough as they are. I don't know, we'll see when
one of your best friends ditches you to screw an ex- it starts to make you see where their priorities are.

I don't know where I'm going with all this, but I'm extremely scared with what will happen.
When I have to hear the words : "You'll be ok, you're strong." I begin to worry, because that means
there's much more for me to have to handle.

With such events, I've decided to spend my spring break at school. I'll pretty much be alone, but at least I'll get good hours and good money.
Maybe I can get friends to visit (?). Or not, nobody ever seems to want to. Shit I'm fucking exhausted.

I was supposed to go to the bartending school this morning, but I think I'll have to call and ask to come in during the evening.
I completely forgot about my midshift, and I'm struggling to stay awake. unprepared.

On a brighter note RE 5 is super awesome. I can't wait to finish the game in its entirety.

ok I'm done.

So with all of the second midterms and finals coming up I've been pretty stressed. Not to mention my final project which I have DEFINATLEY not started on. Despite that, I just realized that it's a three day weekend and there's supposed to be a model coming in next week for my drawing class. I hope it's a nude because I be super psyched to actually take a stab at the nude figure, since Cantwell was well. Cantwell.
Either way I'm pretty excited, that and I get to see my very special baby with weekend for Valentines day: WEDNESDAY!

k that's it.

Alright, I think it's about time I made a nice little post. Like. A real one. Since
I've yet to chronicle my daily happenings and I'm currently single staffed for the next 2 hours.(weak).

I'm trying to think of what I want my final project to be in drawing.I've gone through a fair amount of the class either existing in the middle or bottom. Not always, but I'd definatley want
to make a splash. Having Manet as my subject artist is totally cool though.

 

I may not be very good with the opposite sex, but I sure am happy to have finally taken
a few steps in the right direction(I hope). The best part is. she's wierd. She can be as self-conscious about it, but by god I stand by my choice. Plus she likes fiona apple, so that's totally cool.

 

I've totally got to get on the ball with my school. because this laziness? it's not workin.
I've gotten a few points about being popular, (even from Chelsie) but I sit here and think: "I'll be damned if that's true." Being able to do stuff on my own is just something that I'll never really let go of. I'd be a liar if I didn't admit to being lonely. Mind you it's great to get shit done, but at the same time, who am I kidding I envy never having experienced a serious "mature" relationship.

 

On a mean tangent, has anyone played the new RE5 DEMO?! Cause I have. Like, 50 times already. I'm
totally amped for this game. I'm stoked enough that I'm going to buy the limited edition. Even with money tight. Speaking of which, I've really got to set a solid budget. I need to start saving up some money for the future, especially for my family.I really wish things weren't so stressful for them. That way they'd be ok, and I could comfortably pursue art. But what can you do.

 

There's one thing that's eating me up inside,(Ok maybe more than one but this one is one of the bad ones.) and it's in regards to friends. I haven't seen or heard from Anthony in months, and as gay as it is (screw you I can be gay) I miss him terribly (among others). I have no means of talking to him, and I'm just here steeping in it. I think one weekend I'm just going to show up at his house. In the middle of all this shit, I find myself wishing I had more time. Anyway, enough of rants, I think I've made this post longer than it needs to be, even though i wanna keep going.